How can i sort thru my Confused feelings?

I just had sex for the first time with a 24 year old im 15 i know im a minor but thats not the question.. He slammed into my area dwn there really hard and wouldnt stop about 2 hrs and bit my boobs n sucked on em n now i just hurt all over i enjoyed the painful pleasure but i also dnt want to be hurt nor do i want him to think i cant take it or go really soft I live in New York most young ppl out here like it ruff( school talk) im confused to how i feel n y please explain