I want to kill myself.?

I'm not happy. There is nothing to live for and no one that cares about me. I never asked to live. I have done harmful things, and no. I'm not emo. There is no god. I don't care what you say. I just want someone to give me a reason. I can't make friends because everyone hates me. I have even got death threats from people. I've told my mom I need help and she promised she'd get me a doctor, but it's been months. I just need a solid answer why I shouldn't kill myself. Though it wont make much of a difference.